Happy New Year!

Indeed. I am sitting here trying to analyze my life. I have not only another new day but the first day of a new year. I have 364 days ahead of me to make miracles happen. I am scared, excited and determined. I am a bit wobbly and unsure but I want to kill that immediately. I have not made a list of resolutions. I have that in my heart. I have never been one to accomplish much because I never believed in myself.

I have condemned myself throughout my life, hexed myself and put blocks to stumble on everywhere I have gone. Time to lift all these negatives off. I have a tremendous string of opportunities lying ahead of me. I look ahead and I see an amazing discovery awaiting me and all I have to do is break free and run to grab it. Right now, however, I have this feeling of failure that I am trying to tackle. For some reason I do not feel a fire inside me to get out there and make the most of 2008 even though I have dreams and aspirations. I need to rekindle that flame like I need to rekindle many other flames in my life.

I am worried. I need to eliminate that. I have been a worrier all my life and I just haven’t been able to shake that habit off. But I learnt in the past year that we get what we desire and all that we want. And I believe it with all my heart. As I was writing this in walks our neighbor who is also my sister’s sister-in-law. She is one of the people who inspire me in this world. I saw her give birth to her dream and have seen it grow. Every time I walk into her shop I feel the fire in me raging on to pursue my own dreams. I had just put The Secret on even though as I was watching it myself I couldn’t shake off the feelings of negativity weighing me down and hence I started writing this post. She asked me what I was watching and when I told her a little bit about it she was so fired on and wanted to watch it from the beginning. little did she know she already was in tune with what the movie was about from the 5 minutes she spent telling me about being grateful and feeling good and believing in God and asking for what you want.

I had figured what a better way to start the year than by watching this inspiring movie and applying the lessons therein in my life. This morning as I am finishing this post I am a different person. I have a glow that I had forgotten I possessed. It was suppressed and hidden underneath a mountain of residual emotions that for some reason have now evaporated. Power of positive thinking indeed. I am really excited about the year ahead. I got lot planned out and I cant wait to start out on my amazing list of things to accomplish. Look out, world for I’m coming out!And I shit you not,this time it's on...