Letting go

I would have loved to blog every single day but I'm afraid I cannot.My life has become a delicious unfolding of amazing possibilities.I'm sure you know how people keep journals and visual boards or for some a "book of possibilites" where they keepa constant reminder of their dreams.As much as I do the same,I have seen my life change at such a speed I am awed.From the miserable wreck I was a few weeks ago to the full,vivacious and vibrant individual I am today,I could stand to be a living testimony of how we can change our situation just like that by changing our thinking.

I don't want to start preaching and besides I am kinda enjoying the private discoveries I am making and in the privacy of the chambers of my heart I silently give back thanks and praise to my Maker.I love life;I love me!I could scream and jump up and just dance and I will.These are the days I long to have my own place and I know I will.I know for sure the meaning of the phrase "if you wish for something so hard you will get it".I am enjoying the secret Monalisa smile that is now constantly playing on my lips and my eyes...my God,my eyes are just the most beautiful thing in me right now in terms of my physical body.They have this glow of light emanating from deep within me.You can clearly see my soul through my eyes.I am so alive.

Anyways,work is ok I guess.Just trying hard to get used to having to work late.I do not really entertain that.I have been a slave to work before and I don't want to do that again.I am instilling discipline in all areas of my life work included.I mean,I don't mind working late ocassionally but this place sorta makes that the modus operandi of the agency.I can't let that happen again.Little Precious no. 5 is growing daily.She just kills me with her smiles.Infectious.With all the joy flooding my soul from all corners of my life where is the room for misery?I look back and wonder how I let such an insignificant,useless emotion ruin my life and plummet me towards hell but as I always say you live,you learn.All these experiences are the fuel for growth but they don't necessarily have to happen all the time and so I refuse to believe that I have to go through this kind of pain again in my life.I am set for my bliss now,my land and there is not stopping me now.I have grown so much in this period that even I am surprised.I have no time anymore for worry,fear,doubt or criticism.I am bound for my land of freedom;for my heaven.My year of jubilee is here I guess I could say and when you are set free,would you sit down and start crying with heart-wrenching sobs of the trials and tribulations you went through while in bondage or will you rise and let the sun bathe your face and run towards the freedom that stretches before you?I chose to grab my freedom,my redemption and walk out.And here I am now standing strong.

I only long for the effect of the ocean.Somehow there is something missing and I know my ocean is my ally.Lord knows I need her healing powers too lol.Well,gotta read and write a little so till next time...ta.